I followed your post regarding this in "New Member" Intros - I do not remember reading that this came down 4 months ago... I'm guessing you do not have a professional to talk to. Has any of your thinking changed in 4 months? Have you been able to do anything for yourself to start to heal? If you do not have a professional to talk to...you really need one.

If you do not have access to one...maybe someone here can suggest if there is a forum that can help - W/the Doc of this site? Do not get me wrong, I have seen some great suggestions posted here and from your post in the new member intro forum. This is a great place to get it out, get support and have others to empathize with you...but you have to start helping yourself.. a little piece at a time. If you are thinking of suicide still -you have to have a professional help you through this.

Not long ago suicide was in my thoughts. I do have a psychiatrist...he did have to change my medication a little, I had to restart therapy and I joined this site. I do not have health insurance - I go to a place that has a sliding scale for income because I could not afford to go the regular route. The medication blocked those chemicals in my brain that were putting me over the edge. My problems are still here...but I am able to function and work on solutions. I feel totally different than I did 2 months ago. You still have to go through the stages of losing some one you loved..it is like a death. Let us know how you are doing.