Hello both of you.

I've mentioned my experience with Lamictal in a couple other posts but my experience has been so significant, I wanted to share it with you. I tried depakote and abilify first and neither was good (weight gain, feeling like a zombie). Lamictal was the next contender and boy am I glad for it. The titration was seriously awful--weird headaches, shaking (but not actually shaking--you couldn't see it but it was like I was shaking inside, if that makes sense) and the worst part, these very upsetting dreams every night. I'd wake up crying every morning. It took about 6 weeks for me to get up to 200mg but shortly after I got there, I really started to feel better. I felt like I was myself again--not medicated, no side effects (I know this is not true for many people, I was lucky).

Hbomb, I like what you're saying about being grateful--I've felt that way too, just so grateful to be alive and moving in the right direction. Gratitude is so important but difficult when things are really bad.