It's the start of day 3. I was wide awake until 4 am last night, and then it took me 2 hours lying in bed to get to sleep. I woke up at 10 this morning, and I'm feeling pretty tired. My mood seems to be staying stable, and I think the insomnia is the Saphris withdrawal. I was just going to try this for a few days and go back on, but now I'm thinking that if I can stay OK I will stay off the Saphris and just stick to lamictal and wellbutrin, and maybe try to stop those eventually too. I believe I am bipolar, but I don't believe that I need to be on so much medication forever. I have had some severe episodes, but in between I do OK, and I am high functioning - I work full time as an NP, and unless things get really bad I always go to work. The last time I was off was almost 2 years ago, and I've been on one AP or another for almost 2.5 years. I think it's time to give it a break. I was on no meds for 8 years prior to starting with all of this a little over 3 years ago, and during that time I only had some low grade depression and 2 episodes of hypomania, which only one was severe. My pdoc definitely won't agree with my stopping the saphris, but it's my body and I want to decide what I'll put in it. I am required to take meds as a condition of keeping my nursing license, but I don't think my pdoc would turn me in as long as I stay stable. Anyways, the experiment continues, and so far so good.