Thanks you guys- it is so nice to have people support you and know what it's like. Sometimes I could strangle my husband because he is so "everything will work out", "there's no reason to worry", "live for the day", etc. But really, if I had someone more like myself, always worried about what ifs and planning the future, not living in the present, I would be nuts. We balance each other. And really, I love my cute little house- even if it's tiny and the basement gets a little water in and with all its other minor repairs needed. We will fix one thing at a time, hope to move to a bigger home SOMEDAY when the time is right, and for now just appreciate that we have a home, shelter, and the most important things in life...

So I am learning to be appreciative of what I have- and I am also really working on not caring if these things don't meet others' standards.

Thanks again!