I've been on and off depressed for probably a couple of years now (I'm not entirely sure how long) with it getting worse every I begin to feel low again. Since mid-January I've been feeling like **** for most of the time. I get suicidal thoughts on most days (though I don't usually think too much on to them). However, how I've been feeling for the last 2-3 weeks is unbearable. I feel lost, without direction, empty, and completely devoid of happiness (even the moments I do feel happy I still feel an emptiness lying beneath it, it feels at best a temporary reprieve from hell). I'm in my first year of uni and I'm now finding it incredibly hard to concentrate on my work (it's great that this just so happens to coincide with encroaching deadlines and exams). I often wonder if I'm wasting my life, although I don't really know what I'd rather be doing. I'm usually considered a very funny person. I'd just started doing stand up, however this depression has greatly hindered my ability to find humour. I have a feeling of emptiness mixed with tension in my chest, and my head feels light/like it's spinning mixed with the feeling of incredible pressure. Sorry if this seems incoherent, I'm having difficulty arranging my thoughts. I guess my question is; can any of you help me?