Ok, so I told my pdoc about my my terrible Latuda experience and he took me off it and stuck me on Depakote because, "it will slow you down fast".

Ok, so I'm sure everybody who is manic would say that they aren't having a problem...I realize that...but why can't my pdoc (or others) just treat the depression alone? To me, I don't feel like my versions of mania/hypomania are a big deal. Getting depressed is a MUCH bigger problem for me. I won't lie and say I haven't had minor problems with mania but I also don't have any major problems that are, in my opinion, valid cause for a mood stabilizer like Depakote. I may be wrong, but I thought Depakote was one of those "big guns" type of medications used to control people fast...

Am I the only one worried about being on a mood stabilizer and it's deadening effects. I've heard people say that it screws with your creativity and can make some people feel numb. I may be overreacting a bit...but I'm really worried about losing creativity and feeling numb because both feelings and creativity play a big role in my life. If I lose those I lose everything.

Other than this, perhaps somebody can give me some encouraging advice that will help me not to worry so much.