anger is a very stong emotion to deal with. Sometimes when a person gives you even a remote possibiltiy of security your afraid to push it away...anger in anyones minds is the number one way to push someone away...with anger your courage is built up your activity level...when people are angry sometimes they dont remember or dont mean what they say..its the anger that fuels alot of stuff...so you block it away feeling like you can never get angry at the person who gave you security..you feel it would be unworthy to them if you showed any ungratefulness when in fact the person doesnt care if you ever get mad at them...they do you a favor of security because they care about you..it doesnt make them perfect..it doesnt mean that you are forever in debt to them...you are still human and so are they...both of you know that...and I think maybe your therapist is trying to get you to realize you can show anger to her..that its ok ..its still SAFE to show her anger...if you can trust her for security you can trust her with anger...she wants to see how you deal with your anger..she wants to see those emotions because she knows you have them. It is crucial for a therapist to see every emotion in order to help their patient...and anger is in everyone...im glad you learned how to redirect your anger..it seems you are doing wonderfully..but i too also felt no anger to those who showed love me im going through that right now..my abusive parents showed me a tiny bit of love and i feel i have to be the perfect child otherwise i feel guilty..even though i have the right to be angry at them...i have the right to say im angry with them...just like you..you have the right to be angry for an understandable reason...im sorry i wrote an essay and im sorry if i made no sense whatsoever and im sorry if i didnt get your post and wrote about something completely different..but if i helped im glad!! Good luck keep us posted! love, Inny