I spoke to my lawyer today, he informed me that we have Court procedures on the 24th and 25th. This will mean that I have two full days in a room with my ex and his lawyer. I have my kids until the 15th of this month, then they go back to dads. How am I supposed to get the help I need before having to go through these procedings. I can't even stand straight half the time. I am so dizzy and I get really confused. I am trying to eat but I just can't. I had a small salad today, but it did not stay put. BECAUSE I AM A FAILURE. So I will look totally incompetent on these court days; so they can take everything away; just like they wanted. I may sound like a big baby but I don't think I can do this anymore. Just when I realize and make an appointment with my doctor to get some help; this happens. I don't know what to do. I feel so awful. What does it matter anymore; I can't stop this anyway. I am too weak.
Elizabeth.