Well it got the best of me. Sigh I really thought it had left. Nope its still hanging around like a bad case of chicken pox. Ugh!

Ended up in the crisis center twice and then 51/50 myself do to the orders of my self and the psychologist. I totally believe in the power of spiritual prayer, and I know there are answers to many perplexing questions. But PTSD is kicking by you know what.

It has been now, lets see, um 12 years since my son passed and mom, and I'm okay with it now. Why does stress and life just overwhelm me? Its so annoying it depresses me even more and I cry like a baby. Don't get me wrong crying is essential to healing it just makes me angry.

Now on abilify, zoloft and anxiety meds as needed. I hoping that my counseling will be the power that creates peace in me and my brain that turns like a hamster in a cage.

I haven't been on here in weeks since I broke down and went in hospital. It feels good to talk with others dealing with the same stuff. Hugs to all who read this, cause we need it.
Grandma