So what does a person do, when, because of depression, they can't keep a job for very long, they continually disappoint others and ruin most relationships, they no longer have any real friends, and now are a burden on their family at 40 years old? I think there comes a point where you (me) lose hope.
I've had depression for the past 19 years. Sometimes I feel hopeful, as if I can find a purpose and some enjoyment in life. "This year will be a great one!" Then, soon I have cancelled on something/someone, I have quit a job, I have slept through an appointment, I have disappointed my mom and sisters again....
At some point, I am realizing things are not going to change.