T,
I pulled my hair out tonight over the intensity of my OCD. It's literally controlling my life.

Starting my new fitness program on Monday, and it's going to be 84 days of hell. I hope to be in tip top shape to compete afterwards. But today is Sunday. Since the program doesn't start until tomorrow, what will I eat today? My eating disorder is going to kick my butt for these 24 hours. I want to eat nothing until tomorrow. I want to eat healthy per usual, but how can I do that when it's Easter and my aunt will be cooking whatever it is? I have no control over what she cooks and I'll have to eat. I should hit the gym, but the programs day 1 is a Monday and today is Sunday.

You were right. The one thing that I enjoy, I obsess over. 6 years going to the gym daily, and now battling another form of an eating disorder.

From anorexia, to bulimia, and now orthorexia. Will it ever end T?

Sincerely,
A frustrated, soon-to-be-hairless, 22 year old girl.

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