I'm reading a book entited "Breaking Free of the co-dependency Trap" Its not one of those "pretty" co-dependency books where its suggested you repeat "I am a pretty girl" 25times daily LOL but it really gives a meaty honest look at it and recovery.

Reading one chapter it suggests writing 2 columns of what we resent our mothers not giving or doing for us and another column for our father.

I didnt get as far as pen to paper the sentence "I resent she didn't love me enought" came straight to the forefront then like the book suggests I take that with me into all relationships. I sit looking at T with this old tape playing and playing and missing the fact that T is sitting and waiting for me to "come to" and see what she is offering me.

Instead my head is going round and round in time waiting for mum to love me enought and IT AIN'T GONNA HAPPEN because its gone, that moment in time is no more!

Geez how delussional am I? LOL

I will enter T tomorrow and speak about this immediately.