Stayed up late last night fell asleep on my mother-in-laws couch got home stayed up for a bit them went to real bed at 1ish this morning. Now its 9 am. I don't really want to be up, but no choice i'm awake now. Yesterday I had a mini breakdown while my wife and I were hiking in a national park. I really hope that tomorrows pdoc appt my first in a long time goes well and can lead to something being "fixed". I want to know what is wrong with me for sure and for it to be fixed. I want to be better and not feel like I'm all over the place. Baby steps I have to keep reminding myself, tomorrow is just a step. Its not going to be fixed in one visit with any dr. At least its a step in the right direction.

Tig