I'm finding it very difficult to forgive. None of my abusers have ever repented and continue to place the blame on me, continue to emotionally abuse by telling me all my faults and never ever have recognized the damage that they did to me. I don't know how to release all this poison that's been doled out to me from the time I can remember.

I lost my faith a long time ago.

I'm in loop right now, since this anniversary date has triggered a HUGE set of emotions and high blood pressure that I cannot contain with mindfulness or meditation.