Thing is, i don't want to cry, scream and be sarcastic anymore. Surely sometimes we have to resign ourselves to a situation? If there are no good outcomes why is it so wrong to settle for one less bad? I can't physically be in the presence of others - even this is a stretch for me. I want to feel less lonely but i have to accept that i am not like others and therefore cannot pretend to be like them. It's not ideal but i'll only run myself into the ground quicker the other way. Being alone is sad, but it gives me more time. Time to appreciate whatever i can for however long that may be. I'm sorry if this is hole laden and ripe for inconsistency-picking. It's just how i feel.