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Depression can make you feel as if you are missing somethine in your life at times sometimes for LONG period of time. what is usually missing is the want and need to feel like a more normal and stable person. Depression can be helped greatly at this time by medication and therapeutic support so the VOID in your life is lessened that you feel the majority of the time. Professional help is what has helped many to persevere in life including myself. I am very thatnkful that I am able to thrive with depression with the right medication and therapeutic help. I hope that you seek the professional help you need soon so you can feel better and more accomodating and hopeful in your life. PM anytime chat is open for you to talk as well feel free to come and chat anytime. Take care Soidhonia