Well today I am feeling better I am still angry but I don’t want to cut as badly. Last night I went to a SAA meeting and told them how my day went. I got some good support there. When I got home I showed my wife the incision marks I made on my body. (To help defuse the feelings of cutting sometimes I draw an outline of where I want to cut with a pen and use that as a kind of cutting in and of it’s self) I wrote a note to myself in the third person from my bodies’ point of view asking why I wanted to hurt me and tried to answer the questions. I have my SO group today and I think I will bring it up there as well. I appreciate the support and I made it thank you all.