Wow yr family isn't being supportive at all huh? You really need them and they don't seem to realize that. Maybe you should look into getting ssd cause you have trouble keeping jobs? That's what I had to do. I kept getting fired from my jobs and I couldn't keep one to save my life. Now I collect ssd and work a pt job. It's very supportive and flexible which really helps me. I'm also in my 40s...I'm 44. I really understand the feeling of losing hope. Do you have regular therapy every week? It helps me not feel so alone. I'm so sorry you have no friends...you don't have anyone to be there for you? Why do you feel that you disappoint yr mom and sisters? You really need them for support esp if you don't have any friends you can talk to. Please know that we're here for you! Depression is hard but it's harder if yr suffering alone. Feel free to pm me anytime ok? I'll be here for you to listen and support you.
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