Hi everyone!

I need a little help.

My grandmother was emotionally abusive when I was young. My mother an I lived with her and my grandfather on and off. My mom was always working and sometimes not around. At night my grandmother, who is mildly schizophrenic and maybe Borderline used to drink heavily at night and would constantly berate me for no reason, saying that I was born to be stupid and would always be worthless. Things would also get really bizarre at times. I remember being around for or five and she would tell me in detail all the sexual things she had done with my grandfather and other men. She even told me that I should start masterbating to get used to how my body worked. When I started to go through puberty she would constantly feel my chest and make comments about how big I was getting and a couple of times said that she needed to see me naked for some reason. I don't think she was a pedophile, but her actions still have a huge effect on me and have caused some serious depression and dissociative issues.

Am I overacting or was this abuse?