I am 53 and BP/PTSD and chose not to have children. I am divorced twice and on my own the past 10 years. I think being a parent would be the most rewarding and enjoyable experience of life. Yet I think my decision to not be a parent was the most unselfish of my life. I knew what experience I was giving up then as I do now. My life has been a full time job. My energies go to making a good life for me and maintaining good relationships with family and friends. I don't have enough to give to a husband, let alone children. Children deserve so much more than I have to give. I have more than enough love for them, but not the energy nor stability to nurture them daily. Sometimes my heart still hurts for not having a child, but when I watch the stresses of my siblings and friends raising there children, I know for me, I made the right decision.