Strange thoughts and feelings continue and it's approaching the danger zone. Imagined hitting a pillar on the highway with my car again. Felt real. But they're not my thoughts and feelings it's coming from outside of me somewhere. Like the last time and I don't know who or what or why but it's not safe. I have glass and I will use it and I don't want to and I wish whatever it is would leave me alone.

So I buckled down and took the Seroquel. I hate the side effects. But I can't lose my life or my freedom. Just my mental freedom.

Bothersome.