Please don't apologize. I wish that no one had to hurt this way, but yes, it is nice to know that there are people who understand. I'm very sorry to hear that you aren't doing well. Are you getting any help? I have stopped shaking now, although at this point anything could trigger that response again. Ate something for dinner, though nowhere near enough as my stomache was still complaining after. I sent an email that I set as my daily goal, so that was a step forward. I don't know what to do with myself tomorrow though. And I want a sedative so very badly. I haven't taken one in a month (I think) so it is not withdrawal, but it is all I can think about right now. I can't stop thinking about how stupid I am, and I can't take the image of people snorting with laughter at me. I've been reading about primarily obsessive OCD, and it wow, it sounds very, VERY familiar. I will never know until I see someone, but I'm terrified.