We have a good group of people here on PC. But remember that foremost they are people too with their own distractions and problems and mood swings. They can be here for different purposes and this even applies for the same person at different times. But that is what makes this "place" on the Internet so interesting. But when a person like yourself is truly in crisis, and it is obvious to us here on PC, thrn many of us will jump in and try to help. I think you are finding this out now.