First I would like to say I am grateful to find this site. About a week ago I was coming off a manic episode. I tried to reach out to a friend, which is very hard. Then after I did I didn't feel any better. I then had a blow up with my husband when he started pressing me about "what is your problem" questions. The outburst was draining, but it was also a release. He listened, I felt. It it so hard for me to figure out a way to explain what is in my head. So I search the internet and I found this site. For the first time in a long time, I feel more normal. Wow it was such a relief to find other individuals with the same situations and thoughts I have. I struggle with just wanting to be normal, but am trying to deal with that fact...this is my normal.