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Originally Posted by Curiosity77
I have 4 days off right now, and I'm going to try to go without Saphris to see how I feel. I don't mind if I get hypomanic, but I don't want to get depressed. If things start to get bad I will restart it right away. I need to be OK on Tuesday when I go back to work, but I have a few days to experiment with my brain chemistry. I want to be on as small amount of meds as possible. I don't mind my lamotrigine and wellbutrin, but I don't really want to be on an AP anymore. I haven't been hypomanic in over 2 years, but I've been depressed off and on during that time. I've probably been depressed about half the time in the last 2 years. Right now my mood is stable. It feels like I will never be hypomanic again, and I miss that feeling. I'm hoping that reducing meds will give me some of that high back.
I skipped my dose last night, and I still managed to sleep OK, only woke up briefly a couple of times. I'll see if I sleep tonight, because when I've tried to stop it before I've had pretty bad insomnia. Tonight will be night number 2. I'll see how it goes.
I have to write a paper and study this weekend, but I have no other plans really. Hopefully this will work out well.
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What is the reason for this? Do you have bad side-effects due to this med? Even after dropping this med you still will be on those other meds.
Let me play devils advocate with you if you do not mind.
Maybe the reason you have not been hypomanic is due to the AP? IMHO a few days is not enough time to experiment. And the AP may also be enhancing the effect of your antidepressant. For that matter, you may not find out if your hypomania is going to return until months later. There was a reason you were placed on it, and this was not because you felt good and were functional during your episodes.
Personally I would not experiment like this without my pdocs guidance. I have responsibilities. I have to be functional about 100% of the time. So I know I would not risk it w/o the pdoc being in on it. My mother is entirely dependent on my mental health. But you may not have these responsibilities in your life. Then you are lucky. I envy you.
I understand that this decision is yours to make, that it is a personal thing. Who knows? This may be the right thing for you. I hope this is the case for you. But I would not tell the pdoc what you are attempting to do. As you know, non-compliance can be big issue with them.
I do think you are a helpful and fine person here at PC. And hypomania cam make a person feel euphoric. But mine are usually mixed. Hope all will be well for you!