Puzzclar, stupid question: origami stars? That might be something to do. Or the cranes. I saw a cool branch with a bunch of cranes hanging off it. It would give me a purpose with it also... thanks for the suggestion.

Alison, thanks. I think I'm out of ideas with all that stuff, so it's hard to find something different to do. I had tried the ice and the rubber band in the past, but they don't do much for me. I might give them a try again though. It's funny that you mention reaching out more, because my wife said the same thing. There's something that has me feeling like I can't call my t for extra support. It's not anything she had said, but I feel like she would be annoyed (maybe because I have told her I feel like a week is really long and she still just schedules for a week out). I dunno. I will try to come back here some more. I just don't want to be a bother to anyone, not here, not with t, not with wife, not anyone.