Morning all.
Granite, I hope you feel better quickly.
Stopdog, thinking of you.
Wikid, GOOD FOR YOU on being firm with your mother. How is the ankle coming?

My day yesterday was good, but last night was not. My MIL was in a MOOD. She was lecturing about fifty million things. Nothing my family is doing is right. My D should get a job (despite being ill and not able to go to school for a week recently). My son needs to get a summer job IMMEDIATELY (despite having had a really tense first year at college AND having enrolled in a CNA course that starts right after he gets back for the summer AND having lined up 'shadowing' times with doctors at local hospitals). I need to call my brother in law about this gluten free diet we're going to try despite the fact that I have researched it already AND I have two friends locally who have had to be gluten free for year AND I have a freaking doctorate and know how to read AND I actually do have a genius level IQ and can ****ING figure these things out. AND we are supposed to entertain a couple of cousins who invited themselves to come and stay with her even though I don't particularly like them and they are condescending to me. I'm not sure if this irritation with everything having to do with us is a reflection of her anger that we don't like her significant other and won't be around him or what.

She has also been paying for therapy for me and for D out of the family's big trust fund. She told me last night that she doesn't want to write anymore checks to my T (saying his name in an angry way with a kind of sarcastic "doctor" in front of his name). She used to see him also and stopped seeing him when he told her how unhealthy he thought her relationship with her significant other is. So. I really appreciate her generosity in including me in with the family medical bills up to this point. I just would have liked a bit more warning that I need to stop seeing him or figure out a way to pay for it myself. I really don't think there is any way I can afford it. My H hasn't said anything yet, but I don't think he realized what she was saying. I am internally in quite a bit of distress and really stressed out. I know I am doing that thing where I show no emotion so my H is absolutely clueless at this point about what is going on with me. All he can read right now is mild irritation with how my MIL was treating us last night.

Stop, I hope I don't irritate you by whining. I know what you are going through makes my distress over potentially not seeing my T so incredibly petty. I am sorry.