I don't know if it will help or not, but really look into/research what kharma is and is not.
I struggled in a different capacity, with feeling like I was getting what I deserved. Yes, it's an irrational thinking process, yet valid because those were my feelings, at the time.
I'm sure, it will be clear, that childlike banter with your Daddy, didn't create health struggles later in your life.

If uncertain how to bring this up with a trained clinician(pdoc, psychologist, social worker, neuropdoc,, neuropsyche), start with feeling like you feel you've created this about yourself. In a cosmic way. Which you haven't...

Self punishment, through guilt, is common with depression.


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