In trying to understand what happens with me, and trying to figure out how to avoid the sabotage that always happens, I looked up a thread I posted here in 2008 (!!). I am still in much the same position, though I have no therapist now -- I have been trying to work on this myself. I have not failed completely to learn, but I have not succeeded either. I continually go around and around -- never manage to make a stable breakthrough.

I am surprised at how well I was able to put my thoughts together that long ago. Probably this thread will not interest anyone here now. I don't know what good it will do to post it:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/psych...g-therapy.html