Thanks so very much to all of you guys who want me to carry on . How can I be such a horrible person that I can't see any good in myself, but others can, without even meeting me? Anyway, thanks again. I think you guys are right about the rest, I don't sleep well, actually have never my whole life. My psych. said that Asperger's can be co-morbid with lack of melatonin, the sleep hormone. The symptoms are obviously lack of sleep first, but also a slow metabolism (I am somewhat overweight), and amino-uric acids build up, which I do get because I sometimes get extremely painful gout in my feet, especially the ankle. As I also understand it, lack of sleep or sleep deprivation cultivates depression too. I think this could be the first area that I begin to work on in my life. I don't think I've ever slept through one night in my entire life (since I can remember), and never 8 hours anyway. Since going to university, I don't average more than about 5 hours a night. I always found the extra time great for studying, but only recently began realizing the detrimental effects it must be having on me, despite me not noticing it.

All the best to everyone, and thanks again . I'm not going to give up just yet, there must be an answer somewhere, right?