I know that I am not a bad person because the friends I have absolutely love me. People who once initially disliked me have apologized for overlooking my kindness.

Strive, I'm a lot like how you describe yourself. People often classify me as aloof or emotionless.

I know that this is going to sound conceited, but I think that people are jealous and intimidated by me. I'm beautiful, smart, successful, charismatic, and confident. I think that people grow insecure around me. I had a T once say to me, "You're a very beautiful girl. You have troubles with women because they are jealous of you and you have problems with men because they want to sleep with you. You're going to have a hard time with friendships." I'm beginning to think that I should just quit trying because I can't fix other people's insecurities; I can only work on myself.

Sure, there are some interpersonal thing that I work on, but it feels like no matter how hard I try, I get abused by 90% of people, even if I haven't met them!

I've tried every avenue for looking for new friendships and most people just don't like me. They say mean things about me even if I haven't thought negatively of them. However, I can pick up a handful of close friends anywhere. Maybe the only friendships that I can hold down are with incredibly strong and understanding people, which cancels out most humans, I've learned.

Hankster, I am very interested in what you said. Could you please elaborate?