My sense is that body-centered therapies are not what I need. Maybe I am just afraid of something like that -- it feels far too dangerous. I could easily be exploited.

I am no longer willing to go on a search for therapists. I've had too many bad experiences. And the weekly hour seems foolish to me -- I am not willing to keep going part way up the hill only to fall back again repeatedly. I need something more sustaining. When I get into a bad condition, it can take me days to recover even to the extent I do -- I can calm myself if given enough time and quiet, but no therapy that happens only once a week for 50 minutes does anything other than the endless round of partial recovery and falling down again. I will not do it any more. I can do that by myself, and it is free.