I haven't lived with immediate family since a stint after my service in the military and no matter how much distance I put between my parents and siblings they still add to my frustration and pain.

I wrote about this earlier where I bought a car come to find out it was a lemon, bought it from a dealership that's an acquaintance of my dad (retired mechanic). Not even a full day of driving and I had major issues, my dad has never had a good track record of working on his kids or ex wife's (my moms car) everyone else was always and still is put ahead of us. Quite frankly the man doesn't like his 4 sons he had with our mom. And if you're wondering if this is made up, hmmmm he's said on many occasions that we think we're better than he is because we were never locked up in jail like he was a majority of his youth. The man was either locked up when one of us was born or he left my mom in the delivery room on her own that was the case with me.

Now I tried everything with this car I took it to two different shops and they screwed me on fixing it and I lost more money. 3000 bucks and counting so I had to use my moms backup car as of late which is no better than the car I bought simply because it's old. So I left the newer car at my dads not for him to work on because I know his track record and how he lies. I couldn't do anything with the car after exhausting money I already didn't have and now being behind in bills. I have to wait to get paid to try to get anything done and that's when dad calls and has taken the car apart and volunteering his services that I didn't ask nor want because I know the drama is not far behind. Now at this point I can't even take it to someone since his disabled it. He tells me all these parts it needs I shelled out the cash and one thing after another.

Here's the fun part I'm about 3300 into this car that I haven't really driven. All behind on bills trying to get a break at least and have a car. He calls and says it needs a radiator and that's 60.00 I didn't have it so he used his personal money and no I didn't ask him too at all I said just wait until payday. He says no I want the car out of my yard so you can have it back. And here's where the negativity comes in like I knew it would. My mom his 2nd ex wife's car breaks down and he stopped everything on my car to address hers only beciase she cursed him out. He's called all my brothers and mom to tell them that "look this stupid boy has me sinking money into his car" and all I can say is wow... I told him I didn't ask him to do that but yet I'm stupid. According to him and my mom they don't see how I've made it own my own or how I became a marine. Nice words from family huh? No wonder I'm depressed and angry, I got dealt a crappy hand in this life and I try my best to do my best and at every turn I'm ridiculed by any and everyone. And the only person I have in my corner is my oldest brother but ironically he suffers from major depression. So I don't have many to talk to and it gets overwhelming. I've done the medication been on 4 and none helped. I go to work and come home it's all I do. A few friends but they live in other states. I feel alone and the way my family is towards me make me feel as though I'm just another burden