it is hard when you have to put down a pet that you have had for a long time..
When my ex had to put our "fuzzy" to sleep I was not at home, and I cried for two days .. I was not there to say goodbye to him, and when I got home the "home" felt empty.. I saw his toys laying around and cried, so hard..
I understand your pain. and feel for you both..
Sending hugs your way.. <marquee> <font color=purple> (((((((((((((((((( hugs and hugs )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) </marquee>
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take time to heal thyself before trying to help others, or you will never get better