Did you taper or just stop this cold?

I can understand not wanting to be on APs long term. It seems though that for that to really work out in the end you have to do it with a doc and you have to go slow. Why not talk to the pdoc more. Tell her you want off enough to do it without her blessing or guidance. If she won't budge find a new pdoc who is open to helping you with this.

Is this AP uncomfortable for you or you just don't like the idea of it and miss being hypo and want to do the illegal drugs?