Well, major depression is in process, brought on by my bad behavior. DWI. Convicted. I have another one as well. I cannot deal very well with this turn of fate. I am not drinking at all now, BTW. My depression was really really bad, but I have made some progress forward. Also, outside of harming myself emotionally and mentally, there was no damage to any person, tree, animal, or mineral. I had starting drinking too much at times... this is true. Yes, you already recognize I could go on and on.

Here is my current struggle in thinking: A long time friend and his wife will be coming to visit for a couple of nights in a few weeks. Yes, I was brave enough to say "oh yes come stay with us while you are on your way north." They asked. In no way would I have throw out an invitation right now, but they asked, and I held my breath and said oh yes! Another long time friend will be coming for dinner one of those evenings. Now, it's easy enough to say my husband and I are no longer drinking, but you guys knock your socks off. But I can't drive due to my lost license, so I won't be doing driving to any site seeing they may want to do (uh, can you guys drive?). Is this when I come out with the truth? Do I just avoid it the best way possible. Can I be taking drugs (well, I am taking brain drugs, of course) and not be able to drive? I am just so overwhelmed with all of this. ALL of this.

I desperately try to apply the "it's how we react to things" thinking to try to keep myself out of the deep end.

I would like your thoughts. All of this is going to go on for a long time...

My best to the forum in all of your struggles...