pachy, i remember there was a guy who used to post on this forum who was really struggling and he went to a partial inpatient program and it helped him immensely. i think he went for 4-6 hours a day 5 days a week for a number of weeks in a row. maybe doing a search on that and just looking at the partial inpatient programs in your area is an idea to try. i am sorry things are so tough for you.