what I get from what you are saying is that there is nobody that you can really talk to, let me rephrase that, nobody who really listens to you, accepts what you have to say and interacts with who you are. expresses an interest in what you are saying. that is really difficult when you have a t who is not accepting of what you have to say. my t of 3 years minimized me at every turn. I used to think it was a good thing. he was normalizing everything I had such great concerns about. but this ended up creating such crippling anxiety for me. I wouldn't bother telling him things that concerned me because I knew he would blow them off. I now have a t that has such sincerity. she believes and validates anything I say. I think I could make up **** and she would believe it. today I told he I thought some of the trauma stuff I was remembering must be from past lives because I could not make sense of it in this lifetime and she even accepted that...lol...but you need to find someone who will validate you, plain and simple....btw...I love your avatar..it always makes me so happy to see it.