I wish you luck on the things to come in your development of self. I don't really have any understanding of transgender but I have known a person when I was in my teens who was a friend of a friend that was born a boy but by age 4-5 he was playing with dolls, wanting to wear dresses and the parents tried to teach him this was not right for him. By age 15-16 when I met him he was way gay (at least that's how I took it) and was very "out there" with sex talk and drugs/alcohol.

Looking back I can assume the drugs and such came from the pain of dealing with hate and forced change from his youth all along to when I met him. Then you add the overall tone of the LGBT community as a whole I am sure he was introduced to a party life rather quickly in finding a few like him or of that group/mindset.

I am not sure what became of him but a sex change was the last thing I heard he was going to do as soon as the money came through from a boyfriend he had been with for a few months.

I know his life must have been hellish and confusing and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone but if your born knowing something other than what you find yourself in then there is something to it. You may have trouble with affording a change and paying for the bills but in the end I have to think that "where there's a will there's a way." Otherwise I would have left this world a while back after losing so many jobs.