Hi Pilatus -- Was there something particular that triggered this feeling like a zero for you?

I often find that some little thing has happened, or perhaps a series of little things in one day, and I blow it all of proportion.

I have a conversation with a student that I don't manage as nurturingly as I wish, I lock myself out of my car, a bill arrives that I've forgotten about and can't pay and suddenly, whammo, I'm feeling like zero -- Everyone else is the perfect teacher, no one else ever screws up and other people seem to be so much better rewarded for their work than I--but of course, who would pay a zero like me anyway?

Sometimes honestly I wind up laughing at myself -- after I figure out how I have built my trench of zeroness.

Othertimes, if I am a very serious depression, that is not enough of course. No laughter then.

Can you tell us more about why you feel this way?