((((sweet))) hugs if you can handle them I don't SI but I do understand. Sorry you are feeling alone. Glad you have this place to come to... keep posting post a book if you have to... (we can always have a mod delete it if it get's too long ..)

try to distract yourself... another day... do your best, ok?

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>