I'm not going to meet up with him, I already texted him and told him I'm not interested anymore. It was pretty much just supposed to be a hook up anyway, I wasn't planning to date him. It would have been self destructive of me to do that, so I'm glad I didn't follow through with it. I almost went to meet up with him around 3 last night, but luckily I decided to tell him to wait for the day time because I wanted to meet him somewhere neutral, and everything is closed at 3 am. I tend to get promiscuous when my mood is unstable, which I'm not proud of, but it is what it is. It seemed like a good idea at the time, like something exciting, but I was a lot less into it after getting some sleep. I considered going anyway today because I felt like I had to follow through on what I told him, but I realized that I could change my mind and I'm not obligated to do anything. My therapist wants me to work on boundaries and not doing anything unless I really want to, because I can easily compromise myself.

Hopefully I'll sleep normally tonight with being back on the Saphris.

Kind of hating my life right now, and I'm really dreading having to go into work tomorrow. I hate that I can crash so quickly and so hard after just a few days off a med and without sleep. I used to be able to handle so much more than I can now, but I'm so sensitive to everything now.

Thank you everyone for the support, it means a lot.