He took our children and left today. He came back 3 hours later. There are attachment issues, we both know. It's been a horrible week here. I have discovered things about him and he has uncovered things that I had swept under the rug. It's just not ok right now. I know neither of us know how to live without the other. It's all we have known. We married at 19.. had kids.. we have known each other since we were 8. I love him. I also know I have treated him like crap. He has been by my side and yet I do not know how to communicate. I just can't. It's like I'm a child. I treat him as a parent. I get so angry. He asks constantly how I can love him and yet cheat on him for the length of the marriage. But I do love him. I seek attention, flattery, and sex. I have played a dangerous game. He says I have no empathy. We just go round and round. My heart breaks tonight. We are not speaking. He is drinking. It's just not good. I know we have to seek counseling in order to survive. So much is going on and I just feel like I'm walking on my knees. It doesn't help that I miss my mother so freakin' much. It's been one month since she has been gone. I want to call her so bad. Thank you for all of your responses. They mean more than you know.