Firstly your English is very good so straight away you have that on your side and can communicate with people all over the world. Secondly killing yourself is not an option unless you are in the last thows of a terminal illness and in constant pain ( the laws on euthenasia should be universally rethought and accepted imo). As long as you are in reasonable health things can always get better. Nobody or nothing (except as prev stated) is worth terminating your own life over. You are unique and your life is worth as much as any other life on earth. You owe it to yourself to make the most of it. Your friends are not supporting you? THEY ARE NOT YOUR FRIENDS. Your family?. They will always be there and may support you in the future. In the meantime find support wherever you can. Here is a good start. Draw a line under it and move on. Find a way to help other people and in doing so you are helping yourself. Don't wallow in self pity. The world is so big we can barely imagine the enormity of it. Get out there and live your life. You owe it to yourself. I wish you well. Love and peace.