About two years ago I went through an eating disorder where I would make myself eat something every two days. It was not on purpose I just was not hungry or if I though about food I would feel nauseous. I knew not having food in my system was bad for my body so I would force my self to eat every once in a while.

Now I am the complete opposite. I can not stop eating and I am always thinking about food. I eat past the point of being full and I feel like I can not control myself. I eat every hour of the day and when I am not eating all I can think about it food. I am starting not to fit in my clothes and it is making me hate myself. I find it difficult to control myself on portions, but once I am done going on a binge I feel bad about myself afterwards.

I can't seem to find a balance and I really do not know what to do It also does not help that I work in a fully stocked kitchen 9 hours of the day and constantly surrounded by food.

How does one even begin to attain self control?????