So this isn't really a huge problem, but I'm not sure where to turn. My depression has been pretty bad this past week and a half, and I pretty much want nothing to do with anything or anyone. I also have pretty bad social anxiety which worsens when I'm depressed. I've been trying to be good though because my boyfriend's birthday is this Friday.

In past years, I have planned a party including his friends, but due to that stressing me out beyond belief, I let my boyfriend know that I was only planning things for him and I this year, and he was fine with it.

Late last night, less than four days before his birthday, his friend contacted me and asked if I could take him out Friday night and she would set up a surprise party for him in MY apartment while we were out....the thought made my skin crawl (my apartment is my one little happy place). I told her it might be better if we held it elsewhere because our place is tiny. She is looking into other friend's places, but may come back to me.

This friend is a huge drinker, and I have my own issues with her already. I try to avoid drinking because in the past, my drinking mixed with depression ends up leaving me angry and somewhat uncontrollable. I can't not go to this party (or get out of hosting it, possibly) and I want to cry just thinking about it. It's just one big night of unwanted drinking and unwanted company for me, but I have to look happy because it's my boyfriend's birthday, and I don't want to be selfish. How do you guys handle situations like this? I know this isn't a huge issue, but I couldn't talk to anyone that doesn't understand depression or social anxiety because I know this wouldn't seem like an issue to them at all.