I've been feeling really down this week; have been mostly just wanting to sleep, and haven't had much interest or motivation to do anything else.

Have a weekly medication group appointment with my two pDocs and some other patients today; not really looking forward to going, because I'm not looking forward to reporting how poorly I'm doing. Often when I'm doing poorly, I feel like I've failed.

But I know I need to go...sometimes it really sucks that although it's not my fault I have this disorder, it is my responsibility to deal with it. Some days I just wish someone else could fix it instead. But I know that's not going to happen. So...it's off to the appointment with me.