I'm glad you've been feeling a bit better, swheaton. I experienced some strong suicidal ideation last night, so I know what it's like to be in the pit of despair.

I don't want to hijack this thread, but for all of you who reassured the OP that bipolar is cyclical and the depression will eventually lift, have you ever heard of a 9-month bipolar depressive episode? That's me right now, and I just can't imagine feeling any better. . .