Rapunzel, Thank you. I guess I hadn't thought about comparing my lack of being able to feel the presence of God with my not being able to feel any human caring about me, either. I think that my inability to feel that people care about me is from the PTSD but it could be from the other mental illnesses... It's funny - when I am told that someone cares about me (therapist, friend from church, etc.), I have to take their word for it because there's something wrong with me, that I can't feel cared for.