This is terribly humiliating to post even being anonymous. When I was around 11 or 12, I engaged in some sexual experimentation that I have obsessive guilt about. I am diagnosed ocd and recently I have been reviewing this memory of experimentation in my head over and over several times a day. I am seeking constant reassurance that I'm not a disgusting horrible person because of this. So what I did was, like I said, around age 11-12, I, along with 2 of my friends, had sexual "contact" with a dog. What's even worse is I did it several times while I was by myself. There was never penetration, I have absolutely no sexual desire toward animals and I infact think it's disgusting. It has been over 10 years since this happened and I still obsess and can't let it go. I also am pretty sure that I looked up child porn a couple of times, and again, I was 11 or 12, think it's gross and have no unhealthy attraction to children but I am terrified that I am some kind of pedophile. This took a lot of courage for me to put up so please only post helpful comments. Thanks.